A NEW BEGINNING LINE

I intended to make full use of the vocation, however,looking through my performance from the last twenty days. I failed again, I found that I do not have strong will to carry my plan out. I am lazy, too lazy. I slept a lot for the past twenty days, spent a lot of in watching movies,playing computer games. However, I was suffering, I was trying to make a change. Every night I lay on the bed, I am planning what I am going to do the next day.I really wanted to make a difference. But every morning I did the same things. Pushed back the clock, went back to the bed, and slept until I cannot bear the hunger. After I got up, the first thing I did is opening the computer to surf the internet, watch movies, TV series. I tried my best to get back on the books, but it only lasted for ten or twenty minutes. I am ashamed about myself. What is worse, I did badly in the last semester. The CAP is just 4.3, many of my classmates got 4.8 or even 5.0. I don't know how to speak to my family,my sisters and parents. I am disappointed by myself. Today, one of my classmates said:" once you are a Chinese, you must got an 'A+' for the maths module(MA1505). I had nothing to say, I was just like the worst in the campus. I cannot bear the fact any more. I need to make a complete change from now on, I cannot keep living like this. I am ambitious, I have goals. I want to an outstanding undergraduate in NUS, I want to the representation of NUS. I need NUS to be proud of that I was an alumni in a couple of years. To be an ordinary one is not the responsibility of my life. I must be outstanding. As I once said:" There are billions of people passed through the whole history, but a few left there names in the history. Most of people are born quietly, and tragically, they died quietly and peacefully. The other even don't there once was a person except the local administration officer. I do not want to be the majority, I need to be the minority, I must, and I will left my name in the history book. I will, I will, I will!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" I will change from the next second, completely, a different me will be born with my action. My actions will prove what I have said. I will be the minority, I am going to be, I will be!!!!!!!!
Maybe, I will use this blog to record my progress, sweat, tears and cheers!


LI CHANGJIAN
(new born)